these past few weeks have flown by so quickly. with summer vacation ending and the school year starting, time feels like a whirlwind... sometimes i don't remember what i did the day before. this last week, especially, has been a difficult one. my hubby's grandmother passed away.
connie martinez. she was 81 years young. she had a long battle with diabetes, eventually having to get one of her legs amputated. and in her more recent history, had heart trouble. she aged gracefully and did not look 81 years young... more like 60. i met her almost 14 years ago and she has always been a loving, warm, kind, open-arms lady. she was genuine and wore her emotions on her sleeve. from stories that she would tell me and my hubby tells me, she was a hard worker, a strong woman, loving daughter/sister/mother/grandmother/great-grandmother/great-great grandmother. she took care of her family and would do anything in her power to make sure she did.
we had visited her last saturday at the hospital after finding out she had been admitted for having chest pains. doctor said that something was unusual about her heart and that they would need to put the dye in her veins to figure out if she had clots. if she did, they would insert stents to alleviate the clots. when we saw her, she looked herself... a little tired, but nothing more than that. she's had this procedure before several times, so hubby and i were confident that grandma would come out okay and we would invite her over for dinner next week. but things didn't turn out that way.
she lived a long full life. getting to see a great-great grandchild. she had a large family that loved her to no end. but it's still difficult to see someone you love, pass. knowing that you will not see them whenever you want to... that's the hard part. wishing you did more for them. wishing you visited more frequently.
i got to tell her that i loved her and kissed her when i saw her at the hospital. my older daughter got to kiss her goodbye as we were leaving from our visit. my only regret is that we didn't bring the boys with us so they could have seen her one last time.
i'm going to miss her stories, her laughter, her jokes, just her presence. she raised my hubby for a good chunk of his childhood. he misses her so much and loves and respects her so so much. words can't express the emotions he's going through.
we know that she's in heaven, re-united with her mother and father and sister and brother. we know she's at peace and comfortable. hopefully, she's laughing it up... her beautiful smile and laugh.
we miss you grandma. but we know that we'll meet again in heaven. we love you.
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